I really need help. I am burning up inside, and I am so heartbroken. Just typing this im tearing up. But i dont let it show. This guy had been chasing me for 2 years, and wanted to get with me. Promised me the stars, the moon, the yards... and then after 2 years, when i finally said fine lets give it a shot, he started acting weird. He totally disappeared. He had always been acting up. we always had our ups and downs, but i kept giving him a chance. Thinking I was being the better person, giving people the benefit of doubt. He was being shady with the phone calls, i could tell there was a girl on the other side. He would always take the phone outside. Everytime i would confront him, he would bark back acting real mean. Resulting in another fight or argument. My only way of rebelling is to go completely quiet. Even after I confronted him, I didnt say anything to him, except - hope there is a god, and karma is a b*tch. Then i just walked away. Now i am just hurting to say things I have bottled up inside. But I have no way of saying them. Then i found out from someone else that he actually has a gf, which he never bothered to mention. He was still flirting with me. When i confronted him, he turned into a d*ck, and told me off, that i was too much drama for him. It killed me inside. But I told him to never show me his face again, and never talk to me again. I work with this b@stard. Worst decision I ever made. But I guess when someone chases you for such a long time, you are bound to give in sometime. Now I have to look at him everyday. We dont talk to each other. He is always on the phone talking to his "girlfriend" making plans this that. It hurts because he was never like that with me, yet he showed his vulnerable side, and the innocent side. How someone can be this shady is beyond me. I am sick of watching him be super happy everyday. It hurts me so much, to him im a b*tch, because i dont even look at him, but everytime im alone, I cant stop thinking about it and crying. How can someone do someone so wrong? I really trusted him, and all this time he had another girl on the side? How shady can one get. I really thought I knew everything about him. I really really really hate him. At first I thought about making him jealous and getting him back. But the rudeness... I cant get over it. I cant get over the fact that he lied to me. I am sick of burning up inside. I am sick of watching him be happy while I suffer. I know most of you will say go get a bf to make him jealous. I sort of tried that by flirting with a guy. It didnt phase him at all. He is completely content with his life. I just wanna get over him. He truly doesnt deserve love in his life. How can someone he so shallow. Please help me... I dont wanna cry over someone who isnt worth my tears. But i cant help it. I dont wanna talk to him ever again. I wish it was easy to find a decent guy and move on. Its easier said then done, I dont wanna be with anyone anymore. I have lost all my faith!