ok so ever since i was little boy my brother and i never got along he told me he hated me im worthless im adopted and will never grow up i will die .etc but i was really sensitive back then and i cared idr ( i dont remember) when we started hating each other (well he hating me) i used to try to be nice to him and be his friend and he took advantage of that and when karma got him (it got him bad for years) when we moved he tried to be my friend again he did it again when he got friends ok this is when ocd starts i didn't like him so much i made a game which fucked with my head ( i had alot of Imagination when i was little) ok in the game i couldn't go near him ( IM IMAGINING HIM IN THE GAME) ill leave it at that then when i went inside I coudnt go near him ever since its been getting worse i have to do everything 3 6 7 9 times used to be 4 5 but those now are evil i cant do things that many times or i have to change it i have to spit if i swallow when somebody"s talking (especially him) i have to swallow when im talking and start talking immediately after and when i say everything that many times i mean EVERYTHING swallow eat move take a number of steps snap my fingers. etc oh when somebody touches me i have to rub it off i cant stand it when my brothers sleeping because he snores like hell and i cant swallow oh and the worst part is MY PARENTS DONT BELEIVE ME whenever i cant go near my brother THEY YELL AT ME IM FUCKED OH YOU THINK I DONT HAVE MUCH I HAVE SO MUCH MORE PM ME IF YOU EVEN CARE i see those ads about it that just have them thinking bad thoughts about doing something stupid that they didnt want to do(no not pure pressure like thowing somthin out the window) i used to have that when i was six i didnt do it i trusted ocd and i regret it i thought it was me protecting myself its out of control ive overcome little things like tapping BUT THE REST ITS HARDER LIKE 70X HARDER THEN QUITING SMOKING SORRY FOR ME SPELLIGN IM NOT TRYING IF YOU PM ME I WILL