[ Friends ] Open Question : my friend died and i cant seem to cope help me?

my friend was deliberatley set on fire or set himself on fire 2 weeks ago and i am gutted i feel as if someone has taken a piece of my heart.i only found out 3 days go and didnt attend his funeral as i missed had it,he was asian so i wasnt told.i am constantley searching him on google to see if theres any info on the inquest,im devastated and also feel quite angry with him for this,i loved him so much the pain of this is unbearable,can anyone help me.